“Faith is taking the first step even though you cannot see the whole staircase”
It’s been a total of three weeks since I returned from my grand trip around the world and I have had a chance to reflect on my travels and what is next. The first thing I agonized over and then finally completed was resigning my job. I was sure I wanted to resign, but agonized over what to say in my final conversations with the various partners I worked closely with. I only ended up having one conversation because everyone else was on vacation. And the conversation didn’t go too badly. I tried to stay honest because I felt it was only fair to me and to the people I was speaking with. Reflecting on my six years there, I was proud that I made it from Consultant to Senior Manager and had been successful at my job. I think it set me up well for whatever comes next. And I am also confident that leaving was absolutely the right decision for me.
So what is next? I have no clue right now. I am pondering doing contract work for my last client. It sounds like it’s great money and little commitment. That feels like a great deal for me right now. Then I can continue to travel and explore. I don’t think I will do contract work forever – probably until I get bored with it. I do somehow feel like I am on the path to something bigger and better than what I was doing before. There was a moment during my travels where one of my best friends emailed me a one liner saying “you’re doing it!! you’re in Asia!!” It was a great reminder to me that I finally did it!! I took the leave of absence from work and took off to travel and was finally on my way to resigning! All stuff that had felt unthinkable to me in the past.
One of the best things that has changed in me since my travels is an amazing feeling of optimism for whatever comes next. It is a bit scary because I am not sure what it will be. But I am just running on a feeling that this is the first step in a journey that will lead to so many more amazing things to come. I found this blog posting that describes much of how I am feeling. I especially love the line near the end, describing the feeling of “Yes, I did it!” that’s always tinged with a little “Oh god, what have I done?” Here’s to keeping this feeling alive for a long time 🙂